Why
Can't you see
That it's more
than just a hair tie to me
That it's more than
Wax on paper
More than
Something so simple
I can't comprehend
I suppose
The need to feel attached
To something in the past
You can have my past
I don't need it anymore
All I need are things we've made
What the future has in store
If I forget
What last year held
I would only know
That it doesn't matter
And if I forgot
Yesterday
All I need to know
is tomorrow
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I wonder if these images
Were ever something of fact
And so I carry with me
The memories I've packed
I don't think you want to see
All the things I've hidden away
And so out of your sight
Forever they'll stay
You tell me that you wish
I'd let it all go
But then I'll have nothing
of a forgotten past to know
A conversation not spoken
A thought left unsaid
A moment long forgotten
A memory that's now dead
The thing is that keeping those things doesn't help you remember the day to day. How is something from that far past going to help you remember the mail, or dumpster or anything pertinent to the now. As for the past, as it's not that important to me, I guess I assume that it isn't to others either. Perhaps that is because I don't remember, and don't care to you. I don't really mind if you hold on to items - although keeping them out of sight negates their purpose, no? I'd rather forget everything but my name and you than lose you due to the past. I'd give up everything I once knew as long as I know that everyone currently in my life exists and loves me. I don't need past friends, past loves, past days and experiences. OH and that sounds a bit yeah for 68 days so... *disclaimer*
I suppose it's just a different perspective...What matters most is certainly the here and now...However, we're defined to the public by the people we choose to keep around us. We're defined to ourselves by where we've been and what we've seen and what we remember...I suppose I should just go about solely letting whe world decide who I am.
Yeah, I get that. I'm just saying that I don't feel like I define myself by the past nearly as much as I do the present -- of course, it still has its effects on the way I am -- as your past does you whether you choose to believe it or not. Memories don't really mean anything, it is their unfelt and often subconscious echo which truly defines who you have become. I don't think that the public opinion is too terribly important to either one of us -- the fact that this debate of sorts is occurring at all is proof of that. However, even noting that it does exist and influence life, you are judged more by your actions and achievements good and bad than by the people you keep company with. Irregardless, I know that we are not the same people and cannot expect for you to be as willing as I to forget everything past. I can only hope that one day you will find yourself in love with me, and forsake all others in your mind and heart. I can't expect that now, and I know that. I shouldn't by all normal standards anyway. Again, however, I can pose the question... If you intend to keep these items not out of sentiment for a relationship, but for a reminder that your memories are yours... doesn't keeping them out of sight forever (or as long as we are together) negate their very purpose? In that case - why keep them at all? I guess when we are done you'll have them still to remind you, and so I will not ask you to part with something you will need when you have moved on from our time together and moved on to someone else other than myself. I only hope that you can grow as attached to something from our time as to hold on to it when your new girlfriend asks you to toss it out to keep away the less than awesome memory of the start of your relationship. Or did you forget that those items might hold meaning and memory to me too?
It's not the same thing to m as it is to you I suppose. You're looking at it as something that reminds me in one way when it's something entirely different. I have already given you my whole heart and mind. It's yours but you need to take with it all that it bears and accept it as the fragile pieces that are scattered far and wide. I don't even think on the whole "once this is over" bit as I was very serious in my expectations of a forever...I'm very sorry that this is something that you may find yourself thinking on...
I know that you have said it reminds you that your memories are indeed yours and not someone else's. That the year that is tied to that did indeed occur. For you, or at least the bullshit you tell me, it isn't specifically tied to prior relationship. For me - my associations, it is. I had an issue the moment she gave it to you before we were leaving for California. What if I had 'put my foot down' then? I do my best to accept all that you are, and I think in this situation we operate so differently it's difficult. For you, you care that those years existed, for me - - I've given you my whole heart and mind and so have no use for past and prior years. With that in mind, the only reasoning I can see is that you don't expect us to last and therefore will hold on to the past for when you need it again, as you have no use for it now and are content to lock it away unseen. If it is simply knowing that it does exist you would then have it solidified and not need the object anyway. So again, I have no qualms with you having past items - none at all. I intend to keep some things which remind me of past times as well. However, once I am truly convinced that you're in it forever -- the items will no longer have any reason to exist as you will become my only needed memory, my only wanted sentiment.
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