Cyber Unreality

Screaming into the abyss
waiting
for someone
to judge me
Challenge me
acknowledge me
Maybe even
love me

No response
Echoes bounce back
returning my cries
cyclic and cold
Is there no one there
or just no one
that cares

Cyber self indulgence
Self medication
woven with coils
Tubes of failed inspiration
Failed social interactions

Avatars replace reality
Chat-rooms replace coffeehouses
Microblogs replace conversation
even heartfelt e-mails are
things of the past

Yet I scream out
crop my face to an icon's frame
chat away into the space
micro, mini, standard blog
to no one, and nothing

Fading into unreality

You and I

I ask you not for the heavens
nor for the moon or the stars.
I ask you not for the sun
nor the sea
nor any earthly creations.
I ask not for your life
nor your body
nor your will.
I ask only for you heart.
Once I have your heart
it is only natural
that your soul and mind will follow.
In these matters I may be flawed.
Perhaps your mind
will be mine
and soul and heart will follow.
When I have all three
we'll call it love
of the truest form
and parade for all to see.
I don't mind
but I wish sometimes
it were only you and I.

You've given me your mind
a section split with billions;
you've given me your heart
the portion yet unused.
You've given me your soul
the parts I'm worthy to see.

I wish sometimes
it were only you and I.

Written words fall to sand

Miscommunication will be our downfall.
Weeping bitterly into the night.
Written words fall to sand.

I wish you would try to read my mind
The you would see with hindsight
Miscommunication will be our downfall

Our hearts still beat, hands intertwined
So why do I feel such fright
as written words fall to sand

Silly items mean nothing until they are defined
And even so need to put to light
Miscommunication will be our downfall

Please try to know I'm one of your kind
Slipping away into the night
Written words fall to sand

I want you more than absence of mind
More than anything in sight
Miscommunication will be our downfall
Written words fall to sand

Sentiment

Why
Can't you see
That it's more
than just a hair tie to me
That it's more than
Wax on paper
More than
Something so simple
I can't comprehend
I suppose
The need to feel attached
To something in the past
You can have my past
I don't need it anymore
All I need are things we've made
What the future has in store
If I forget
What last year held
I would only know
That it doesn't matter
And if I forgot
Yesterday
All I need to know
is tomorrow

I want to feel this again.

Forbidden fruit
you can't help but taste
raw and carnal
unadultered by media
or social normalities

feel soft lips
butterflies covering
every inch of my
growing exposure of skin

hand graze
every spot
like they were meant
for me even though
it could be anyone

you tell me softly
that you can make up
for areas you lack
scars that just won't fade

and you prove it
bending my will
to your very command
making me moan

with anticipation
I can't
won't
give in to my body's demands

not yet.
not now.

but in time
when your butterfly kisses pierce my core
and your mouth on my viens breaks
all internal self consciousness

then

then I will become

yours

Want to go back home

I love how the wind pushes back my hair
Gentle
Like your fingertips
When you are near

I love your scent
lingering
here on my skin
wishing you were near

Making me want to return
to humble abode
and hold you
even tighter than before

3

never seen
someone look so good
by the pale glow
of a monitor

never felt
such estactic joy
as fingers dance across
my keys

never wanted
anything more
than to see you wrapped in
my mind's labrinth

never heard
someone speak
such mysteries
I can't get enough

never tasted
this poison so sweet
can't get enough
fill my cup

never known
what i do now
stumbling through
the lighted streets

So show yourself
and run your finger
across my skin

Exist as you do
speaking sweetly
into my anxious ear

Make me crave you
with your mind meld
of pure ectasy

you can do this
unlock my quaking fingers
jump into my senses
my world

2

Whispers
fall to the ground
lights dance all around
twilight lit fantasies
of my girlish heart
I can feel you
through the miles between

I can't believe
that this has found me
here in this place
my mind
so full of wasted space
wasted thoughts and time

primary
the word has never
felt more alive
and yes I will be
I will be for you
whatever you need

trust in me
that I can endure
anything
especially if you
stand
by me now

jump of this cliff
hands entertwined
and eyes locked in gazed
and focus deriving
it's pleasure from
logarithmic thoughts

1

Perfection
Unattainable
Yet that is how
I wish to be
How I feel
Sometimes
When he holds me

How I seem to define
these things
falling faster
and jumping
free falling
sometimes
when he holds me

Stressed to
the breaking point
yet there he is
and I am safe
and I am free
sometimes
when he holds me

I never thought myself
to be anything
other than ordinary
he makes me feel
like beauty radiates
sometimes
when he holds me

When he holds me
the world fades to grey
and I am flying through
celestial embraces
upon the invisible wings
he's given me
unbeknownst to him it seems
he is there so naturally
and comfortably I look to him
dare I say perfection

Sometimes

When he holds me.

Untitled for now.

Take me

Cover me
In your world
I cannot comprehend

Fill me with your notions
Your thoughts
Musings of a mind

Short on random access

Thrust your feelings
Inside me waiting
Rushing through

Rip in time

Falling as we
Tumble through
Hold me close

Closing eyes

I can't see
The world in front
Like you can

Crystal dark visions

I am scared
Truth burns like lye
Comforting a sinner

Is that what I am

Pray at night
Covers closing around
Arms hold tight

Faith is all we have

Faith
Is all
We have

All we need

A bit about llamas.

Llamas love Portland.

Llamas are soft and squishy;

They spit in your eye.

Wander the streets with 

all my llama friends and I. 

We won't let you down!

Oh dear llama friend, 

Please make me a soft sweater

To wear when it's cold.

It's been a while

Pitter patter

beating of my heart

pounds in my chest

just thinking

face contorts

what is this grin I feel

where did it come from

oh right

flitting around inside

a thousand million butterflies

wanting to escape

so they force 

their energy on my typing fingers

to keep from bursting my flesh

aah sweet joy

so bitter sweet as

i roll it around my tongue

savor the flavour

the texture of it

smooth, silky

how does something so sweet

terrify me to my core?

Haiku competition for Azurell

Oh! Sweet and gentle
Beast of the sea and my life.
Carry me away!

A new time and place
We can live without disgrace.
Feel your tentacles...

Wrap them around me,
Creature of my desire,
Never let me go.

Never give me up.
Never let me down; oh no!
How does that feel? Woot!

I love you Az'rell,
All the fun things that you do,
Your octo-pye too!

Apathy = <3

Face pressed
To the glass
Of our indiscretions
Broken thoughts
Frayed edges
Fall to the floor
Mind liquidation
Overload
Apathetic notions
Of a one way street
Forked in two
One way desires
The other
Rationalizing rationality
Repeating myself
Again and over
Dried cracked tongue
white flag waved
Here it comes
A wave of pure sweet and beautiful
Apathy
And only then
Can I feel free

Take me

Pacing, waiting.

Anticipating. 

Rushing, tightning.

Tensing, breathing.

Throbbing, waiting

Gently shaking

Kissing, whispering

hushed and amber tones

Sliding, slipping

stroking pace

quivering, grabbing

penetrating

grab and pullling

needing lusting

more and more

feel you move

shiver scream

bite and dig

breathing.

untensing

inhaling

exhaling

smelling

feeling

feeling

breathing

Breath

thc fills my lungs

breath in breath out

can't numb the pain in my heart

breath in breath out

it doesn't matter what i do

how i feel

if the world turns

breath in breath out

crushed life devoid of meaning

breath in breath out

thought that it'd go on forever

breath in breath out

and now i know

the truth that lies

that we'll never come again

breath in breath out

pain in my chest tightens

breath in breath out

don't think I can make it

breath in breath out

he took all that I had

that was worth living for

this pains just too much

breath out

Walt's Daily Prayer. By: Mat Severson

Walt Disney, who art in Heaven, Hallowed be thy parks.
Thy game kingdom come.
Thy will be done, Across Earth as it is in Orlando.
Give us this day our daily bugs.
And forgive us our surprise, As we forgive you when we aren't forewarned.
And lead us not into World of Warcraft, But deliver us from crashing while sailing.
For thine is the magic kingdom, and the Pirates, and the Fairies, for ever and ever.
Amen.

Farewell Fairy

She sits on the pixie pier

her toes are in the sand

as she searches round and round again

for the all so helping hand.

Her wings are fading in the wind

her glow is growing dim.

No more bells as she wispers

barely faint cinnamin.

As she tries to face another day

a voice claims doesn't matter anyway.

So she clutches at the memory

of the not so distant past.

A tear falls down her cheek, escapes a sigh

might be her last.

The whirlwind of hopelessness takes her breath away

She is stranded by the thought of we she forgot to say

She is tourtured by the promise of til my dying day.

As she watches that great light of hers slowly fade to grey

she stares into the blackness what once was her soul

She reaches out a hand but everyone is turning cold

Finally she realizes what this is all about

She's on her own

She's made her stand

and now she's all left out

The love she once shared has been drug and strewn about

No more laughter in her footstep

no more gleem in her eye

Falling to the earth she lets out her final sight

The world, the tide, the sun, all whisper their goodbye

And as the picuture fades to black you see the knife in her side

This loves fate, the curse she laid

she never had any choice

A promise made, a promise broken

just like her young heart

we leave her as memory

and truly fade to dark.