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Perfection
Unattainable
Yet that is how
I wish to be
How I feel
Sometimes
When he holds me

How I seem to define
these things
falling faster
and jumping
free falling
sometimes
when he holds me

Stressed to
the breaking point
yet there he is
and I am safe
and I am free
sometimes
when he holds me

I never thought myself
to be anything
other than ordinary
he makes me feel
like beauty radiates
sometimes
when he holds me

When he holds me
the world fades to grey
and I am flying through
celestial embraces
upon the invisible wings
he's given me
unbeknownst to him it seems
he is there so naturally
and comfortably I look to him
dare I say perfection

Sometimes

When he holds me.

Untitled for now.

Take me

Cover me
In your world
I cannot comprehend

Fill me with your notions
Your thoughts
Musings of a mind

Short on random access

Thrust your feelings
Inside me waiting
Rushing through

Rip in time

Falling as we
Tumble through
Hold me close

Closing eyes

I can't see
The world in front
Like you can

Crystal dark visions

I am scared
Truth burns like lye
Comforting a sinner

Is that what I am

Pray at night
Covers closing around
Arms hold tight

Faith is all we have

Faith
Is all
We have

All we need

A bit about llamas.

Llamas love Portland.

Llamas are soft and squishy;

They spit in your eye.

Wander the streets with 

all my llama friends and I. 

We won't let you down!

Oh dear llama friend, 

Please make me a soft sweater

To wear when it's cold.

It's been a while

Pitter patter

beating of my heart

pounds in my chest

just thinking

face contorts

what is this grin I feel

where did it come from

oh right

flitting around inside

a thousand million butterflies

wanting to escape

so they force 

their energy on my typing fingers

to keep from bursting my flesh

aah sweet joy

so bitter sweet as

i roll it around my tongue

savor the flavour

the texture of it

smooth, silky

how does something so sweet

terrify me to my core?

Haiku competition for Azurell

Oh! Sweet and gentle
Beast of the sea and my life.
Carry me away!

A new time and place
We can live without disgrace.
Feel your tentacles...

Wrap them around me,
Creature of my desire,
Never let me go.

Never give me up.
Never let me down; oh no!
How does that feel? Woot!

I love you Az'rell,
All the fun things that you do,
Your octo-pye too!

Apathy = <3

Face pressed
To the glass
Of our indiscretions
Broken thoughts
Frayed edges
Fall to the floor
Mind liquidation
Overload
Apathetic notions
Of a one way street
Forked in two
One way desires
The other
Rationalizing rationality
Repeating myself
Again and over
Dried cracked tongue
white flag waved
Here it comes
A wave of pure sweet and beautiful
Apathy
And only then
Can I feel free

Take me

Pacing, waiting.

Anticipating. 

Rushing, tightning.

Tensing, breathing.

Throbbing, waiting

Gently shaking

Kissing, whispering

hushed and amber tones

Sliding, slipping

stroking pace

quivering, grabbing

penetrating

grab and pullling

needing lusting

more and more

feel you move

shiver scream

bite and dig

breathing.

untensing

inhaling

exhaling

smelling

feeling

feeling

breathing