Dreaming of this life
I think it’s different
There should be a guitar
Or a avalanche of ideas
Some intellectual merit
Giving meaning to existence
At least meaning to ours
By and by we sit and think
Eternally falling and reborn
There instead lies electric misfortune
An intellect never expressed
Life unfulfilled and greased
Got to have more than that
After so long of simply
Being can’t there be a deepness
Ethereal, poetic or otherwise
Something to get me through
Turmoil in my mind
Uneasy whirlwind heartbeats
Dreaming of another life
Another place
The other road in the wood
Not the one I took
I am content where I stand
Yet long to be somewhere far
And there’s no one to catch me
If I choose to fall
Ground into dust
And there’s no one to support me
But myself and my ambitions
Empty notions of an empty mind
I keep this path I’m on
Close to the edge of happiness
Love, peace, and understanding
Insecurities are comforted
Nonsense put aside
True there isn’t deepness of my kin
But there’s so much more
Today at least, this is where I stand
I want forever
Does it have to start now?
I want forgiveness
I want freedom
I want to be the one
For everyone
I want to climb a mountain
And fall into the clouds
Ride them in ecstasy
And never look down
I want to share my heart
And mind
Without consequence
Dive into whatever this is
And never look back
If only it were possible
To have everything you wanted
The best of both words
My seperality colliding in peace
The one I love
The one I…
No words to be spoken
Nothing to be said
These emotions too blended
In my head, for a meaning to arise
For a word to fit
I think he feels the same
The meanings keep repeating
The words are never still
And yet there’s no conclusion
And I doubt there ever will
We’ll keep this dance going
The music and the beat
Wrapped in all the things we can’t be
Hidden in the words that’ll never be uttered
Comforted by the fact
That there are no facts
No reasoning, no rhythm of life
Just the two of us, or three
If you want to be honest
If it were only two we’d know by now
The ending to this charade
But there’s no conclusion
And I doubt there ever will
Be
In another life I’d be there
Kissing the acrid thc
My frozen feet held tight
Caution to the wind
With a guitar in hand
In another life I’d be there
Free to be me
Wild and expressive
Maybe I’d write more than just trash
In another life
I wouldn’t think about consequence
I’d drink and fuck til the sun came up
And then I’d do it again
In this other life
I’d have a lover who could be
Just that
And break these binding chains
Which hold me back
In another life
I’d care what no one thought
Not even my own conscience
I’d be impulsive
But I’d be me
This other life
It’d be the best thing that I ever did
This other is just an illusion
A dream for me
I’ll always know
It could have been reality
