Showing posts with label C. Show all posts
Showing posts with label C. Show all posts

1.19.2009

Breath

thc fills my lungs
breath in breath out
can't numb the pain in my heart
breath in breath out
it doesn't matter what i do
how i feel
if the world turns
breath in breath out
crushed life devoid of meaning
breath in breath out
thought that it'd go on forever
breath in breath out
and now i know
the truth that lies
that we'll never come again
breath in breath out
pain in my chest tightens
breath in breath out
don't think I can make it
breath in breath out
he took all that I had
that was worth living for
this pains just too much
breath out

1.05.2009

Farewell Fairy

She sits on the pixie pier
her toes are in the sand
as she searches round and round again
for the all so helping hand.
Her wings are fading in the wind
her glow is growing dim.
No more bells as she wispers
barely faint cinnamin.
As she tries to face another day
a voice claims doesn't matter anyway.
So she clutches at the memory
of the not so distant past.
A tear falls down her cheek, escapes a sigh
might be her last.
The whirlwind of hopelessness takes her breath away
She is stranded by the thought of we she forgot to say
She is tourtured by the promise of til my dying day.
As she watches that great light of hers slowly fade to grey
she stares into the blackness what once was her soul
She reaches out a hand but everyone is turning cold
Finally she realizes what this is all about
She's on her own
She's made her stand
and now she's all left out
The love she once shared has been drug and strewn about
No more laughter in her footstep
no more gleem in her eye
Falling to the earth she lets out her final sight
The world, the tide, the sun, all whisper their goodbye
And as the picuture fades to black you see the knife in her side
This loves fate, the curse she laid
she never had any choice
A promise made, a promise broken
just like her young heart
we leave her as memory
and truly fade to dark.

12.03.2008

less than slash three

this is me ravin​g
this is me ranti​ng
this is my fuck you to the world​.​

this is me cryin​g
this is me cursi​ng
this is my fall from grace​.​

this is my life
this is my love
this is my broke​n heart​.​

11.27.2008

What now?

Tears fall
Puddles on linoleum
Lost in a daze
So dead inside
Emotionless
Yet I cry
Hardly knowing why
Part of me wants it to end
So why do I care that the end is near
Why do I care that he’s not here
Puzzled as to why I just want to hug him
Love him
Still be with someone
So full of anger and hate
And mood swings a plenty
I can see through his personality flaws
To a heart that lies within
Does it still beat for me
Will it again
I can only stare
At the tear drops below
And hope

8.31.2008

Stealing from a song

This can't wait
gotta say everything
Kept pent up so long
held tight and corked
Don't hesitate darling
I just have to say
That I love your way
cliche as it seems
Those eyes peering into my heart
want to kiss your lips
Just hold me tight
Stay still
Two hearts joined
in an embrace unimaginable
Never want to fade
Never want to leave
Stay through all the trials
holding on to hope
The hope that some day
you'll make my dreams come true
I got to say that I see it
Have to say that
baby I love your way
Stealing lyrics cannot hide
All that's said between our hearts
when we utter not a syllable
Honey I can tell that some day
you could make my dreams come true

8.30.2008

Some day?

Craving wishing begging
hasn't got me very far
Sitting silently, waiting patiently
hasn't got me very far
Attainment for others fills my mind with doubt
Maybe for me it's never going to be
Crying pleading screaming
never got me very far
Loving cherishing content
no not so very far
Say these things
appeasement never action
Getting tired of
getting nowhere
Full of jealous tendencies
Need something more
Can't take these idle minds
Want the whole
if all I get is part is it even worth
the waiting, the hoping pain I daily endure
Every time I see or hear the glitter
in another's voice and eye
see their gleaming face
can't stand their happiness broadcast
I've remained for so long
I deserve what they've obtained
Still I will stay
craving wishing begging
sitting silently waiting
crying pleading screaming
loving cherishing
staying content
But you know it never does get me very far

4.26.2008

Three years

three years
gone in the wind
passed by violently
passionately

lovely


trivialaties
don't matter
not in the scheme
of her mind


absolutely

together they'll stand
despite prejudices and
misconceptions of others
he'll remain for her

confident


and she is his
this modern day
tale is not of faeries
or anything so

perfect


yet still it has
a measure of such
this happiness
they share

forever
together

4.02.2008

happiness

tucking the tendril of hair
behind her ear
she smiles
eyes glistening
with happiness
at the one she loves

and now she thinks
of all the things
she could have thrown away
and the darkning loom
of depression comes creeping back
like a lover, caressing her heart
with icicle fingers

but she shakes it off
because the mistake was never made
not really, at least, not physically
maybe in her mind she crossed the line
from time to time
but never permenantly
never completely

and now she has
well almost has
everything she's always wanted
the completion she'd craved
since her earliest days

soon it will come
she's hoping
that it'll be here within the month
and then the planning can commence
even though it's layed out perfectly
in her mind
and needs nothing more than
a budget of sorts

and that shiny thing
is so trivial sometimes
and needs not arrive
until everything is done
and said and signed

he wants it though
to give that to her
the way that society can mark them
and the connection they have
and she loves him for this
for all that he is
and she embraces him entirely
his amazing qualities
and faults abound

and he returns the favor
i'm sure

and in this notion of life
there stands few opposition
none which cannot be easily
over taken

feelings between are to strong
and too deep
longlasting and ever enduring

and in this notion of life
the two stand
with entertwined hearts
and interlocked hands

1.10.2008

This is how it should be

Caresses
Moments
Lost in time
Space
And
Energy
Falling
Into
Depths unseen
Loving
Dying
All there is
Your heart
Mine
Perfect Rhythm
Insync motions
More than robots
Less than angels
Thoughts unspoken
Buried underneath
My crushing pride
And you can't see
Say you can't feel
What you should
Holding you soft
Caresses fall
On velvet eyes
Wavering and solid
Incompletely complete
And I know
And you know
This is how the world should be